Hemi-Anniversary

I cannot believe we are one year - surgery free.  Yes, one year ago, today, Zoe underwent her second open heart surgery.

This past year has flown by so fast.  I've cherished every moment of it, even when Zoe's driven me completely mad!

Tomorrow morning when I wake, I'll remember watching her sleep peacefully prior to surgery...

I'll remember handing her over (once again) to Dr. Nicolson, Zoe's surgical anesthesiologist...

I'll remember the two hours I sat waiting, barely breathing, on 'the bridge' for Zoe's post-op nurse, John, to come and tell us she's still alive and doing well...

I'll remember hugging the man who saved her life twice-over...

I'll remember seeing Zoe for the first time and feeling my heart break at the sight of a newly bandaged chest...

And the moments after surgery that tore my heart out as she suffered...

I'll remember that this girl is a warrior, in more ways than one. One of my favorite pictures of Zoe was taken at CHOP, four days post Hemi-fontan. As is usual, when I look into her eyes, I swear I can see her soul. In this picture, I captured that souful 'look' that she gives me so often.

Most importantly, today on Zoe's Hemi-Anniversary, I'll remember how amazing my daughter is.  She's come so far in a year's time.  She's an energetic, full of life 16 month old toddler that brings me so much joy. She's ignited a passion that I've never experienced before. And brought me into a new family whom I love and couldn't live without.

With all of the memories that flood my mind and heart today, I thank her with all of my heart for showing me what it means to live life and be in the present moment. I look forward to spending Zoe's Hemi-Anniversary with her and telling her how lucky and honored I am to be her mom.

Happy Anniversary, Zoe Madison!